Comments on: Pressure, discipline, creativity http://www.blandfill.com/2010/04/28/pressure-discipline-creativity/ Whimmy Wham Wham Wozzle Wed, 18 Jan 2012 06:00:44 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 By: Rachel http://www.blandfill.com/2010/04/28/pressure-discipline-creativity/comment-page-1/#comment-649 Rachel Thu, 29 Apr 2010 02:49:29 +0000 http://www.blandfill.com/?p=498#comment-649 In my life there seems to be a direct correlation between the amount of work and pressure being applied to me (or that I'm applying to myself) and the frequency of these sorts of thoughts. Procrastination is so hard not to do. See, look, I'm doing it right now! I think one thing to keep in mind, though, is that we are not robots. We're only human. And this is a place that I am coming to realize has unattainable expectations, or allows its students to drive themselves to the edge. We're almost expected to do so. I keep remembering why I am here more as finals come along and as I feel more and more like I should be doing and being more. I am here to learn, about the world, about ideas, about other people, about myself. I think I'm doing that in the midst of all this crunching. Maybe I'm not learning what I thought I would be learning, especially about myself, but it's something. The path never goes the way you thought it would. I remember going hiking a lot when I was younger, and we could see the top of the mountain where we were going from halfway up the trail or so. Then the trail would turn away from the peak and slope downhill. It seemed so counter-productive to go that way, but we still reached the top. You'll get there. Maybe not how you thought, but you will. I think it's more interesting that way. Buckling yourself down into an automaton-discipline maching would sell yourself short. I don't know if that even taps into the same idea you were getting at. I am feeling much the same way as your post expresses, is what I am trying to say. You hit the nail on the head. Reading these posts is a good reminder that I am probably not the only one here who wonders what I am doing here and what on earth I am going to do and how I am going to get there. In my life there seems to be a direct correlation between the amount of work and pressure being applied to me (or that I’m applying to myself) and the frequency of these sorts of thoughts. Procrastination is so hard not to do. See, look, I’m doing it right now! I think one thing to keep in mind, though, is that we are not robots. We’re only human. And this is a place that I am coming to realize has unattainable expectations, or allows its students to drive themselves to the edge. We’re almost expected to do so.

I keep remembering why I am here more as finals come along and as I feel more and more like I should be doing and being more. I am here to learn, about the world, about ideas, about other people, about myself. I think I’m doing that in the midst of all this crunching.

Maybe I’m not learning what I thought I would be learning, especially about myself, but it’s something. The path never goes the way you thought it would. I remember going hiking a lot when I was younger, and we could see the top of the mountain where we were going from halfway up the trail or so. Then the trail would turn away from the peak and slope downhill. It seemed so counter-productive to go that way, but we still reached the top. You’ll get there. Maybe not how you thought, but you will. I think it’s more interesting that way. Buckling yourself down into an automaton-discipline maching would sell yourself short.

I don’t know if that even taps into the same idea you were getting at. I am feeling much the same way as your post expresses, is what I am trying to say. You hit the nail on the head. Reading these posts is a good reminder that I am probably not the only one here who wonders what I am doing here and what on earth I am going to do and how I am going to get there.

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